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Howdy Ho,

I am trying to keep up better on this thing. I read everyone's posts though and comment when I feel I have something of substance to add. I've been in a funk for a bit, for a lot of reasons, none that I really want to hash out right now. Sometimes things are not all as happy and bright as I'd like them to be, and I can admit I'm not handling everything as well as I should be. I guess sometimes we need to wallow in despair and sadness, before we pull up the big girl panties and deal. I am here. I might just be quiet, is all.

So I know I need to post more and update things, and I saw this on a friend's page and stolen it happily. I hope this helps to motivate me to post more, and keep it up better than I have been.

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Howdy Ho,

I know it's been several months since I've actually updated or that, but things are just chaotic as all get out in all honesty. I'm currently working like 12-13 hour days, I've already put in 44 hours this week and I've not even gone into work on Friday, or Saturday. I feel a bit of my sanity is gone, and I'm just trying to get through until Saturday afternoon where I can drink a lot and pass out until Monday rolls around and the entire thing starts all over again.

I'll try and make a better effort at updating here, but I really have very little time where I don't feel overwhelmed, exhausted, cranky, or a plethora of other various negative emotions. Someday things will calm down and that, I love what I do, and who I work with, and who I work for, it's just a bit stressed right now with the sheer amount of overtime and work load we have.That's normally how it seems to be in the lending world, it is either feast or famine and I would much rather have feast than the alternative.

I hope everyone is doing well, and I will try and have an actual more update this weekend, if I can find some time to sleep and get thoughts gathered and what not.


~ Darkling
Hello All,

There seems there are not enough hours in the day. I will be training a new group this coming week so need to get to work early each day this week. I am also starting a new class so here's hoping I ended the last class well. I'm not happy with the last few assignments I've done. I know I could have done better, but what is in is and I cannot change anything about it at this point. Just need to go forward better than before. I'm not sure what the new class is, but I will find out tomorrow.

The husband and I have joined a gym. I got a year membership from my mom as my Christmas gift and tomorrow I will get my first appointment with a personal trainer. I'm a bit nervous but also excited to see how it goes. I've not worked out in such a long time I hope not to make a fool of myself too much. The hubs also joined the gym but did not want to do any personal training. I need to find some work out shoes for him and work out clothes as well. It is hard with his height and shoe size, 14, to find something that will fit him. But I will find something for him. I also joined weight watchers again, the first meeting I did not like the leader at all and am going to see about finding another one and meeting time. This one was just awful, she was kind of mean and rude and not all supporting. It will not work out with her personality type and what I am looking for in support.

Work is busy, we are going to be moving to a new building at the end of this week. So we shall see how that goes. I hope it goes smoothly but there is normally small hiccups that come across that way. I've learned to just roll with the punches. Everything ends up working out in the end and I'm looking forward to seeing how the new building is. I'll get to see some of my fellow past co-workers I've not seen in awhile and I'm looking forward to the new possibilities that come with the move.

Welp, I need to head to bed, tomorrow I will be around more with filling graphic requests and relaxing a bit. I hope everyone had a good weekend!

Blinkie made by adorablexi
Hello All,

I hope everyone had a safe New Years. I am trying to do better this year with my health and eating. I need to really get a better handle on both and stop living in denial of the diabetes. The fact infection was a huge wake up call, and so today marked the day I am going down what I hope is a better path. I have managed to make my breakfast for the rest of the week for work and my lunch as well. Tomorrow's is all packed up and ready to go, so I do not need to fuss with anything. The only thing I need to do tomorrow morning is blend up the smoothie I will drink on the ride to work, and the rest is ready in my lunch pail of doom.

The morning meal is made up of greek yogurt with fresh blackberries and blueberries. Lunch meal is chicken salad (made with chopped up rotisserie chicken, mayo with olive oil and black pepper, chopped up green pepper and chopped up fresh chives, with a sprinkle of roasted garlic), cup of peaches, for a snack I have a cup of tapioca pudding (fat free) and fresh diced pineapple. I will also bring with me some flavored waters. Dinner tomorrow is going to be talipa filets, quinoa and steamed veggies.

Wish me luck, so far I'm starting out more organized than before. I actually have made the items ahead of time and packed up the lunch before bed. This is a huge step for me, as I always say I'm going to do this and never do. So I finally just did it. I'm tired of all the excuses and feeling bad about things. Honestly, nothing is stopping me but me, so I need to just stop whining and complaining about just do it. I did that with school, and I can do it with this. So here's hoping for a healthier me in 2013!

Blinkie made by adorablexi

Picture behind the cut of the yogurt breakfast numminess of doom.

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